||[Nov. 6th, 2004|11:54 am]
Dun dun dun.
I'm kidding, but we are back. Took us a while but like I said, we had some things to take care of that needed all of our attention. But hey, at least the break from you guys was productive. A lot has happened, a lot has changed, but it's all good. I guess you want to know what's changed (and if you don't, stop reading) so I'll tell you, cliffnotes version.
Joel started taking drugs again, to cope with everything that happened to him. It wasn't a crazy thing to do, especially when he already knew how much easier they made things sometimes, but it was the wrong way to go about it if he wanted to get better. And even if he didn't want to get better, I wanted him to.
We spent most of our time working through everything that had happened and everything he was feeling. It took a lot of coaxing and a lot of work but we got through most of it. He's doing really good, I'm really proud of how far he's managed to come. Not many people are strong enough to go through what he did.
With all the time we spent together, and all the yelling and crying and comforting, the rest of the guys found out. It was weird for a little while, especially when they found out that Billy knew long before they did. But they got over it, and they're alright with it. I think they're alright with it anyway.
Our new album dropped and I'm so fucking glad people like it. We put a lot of work into this album and it was hard, with everything that went on while we were trying to get it together, so I'm just glad we didn't disappoint anyway. The tour's almost over, and as much as I love being out here playing and meeting our fans, I really want to get home and relax. It'll be a nice break.
Joel and I are good. We were close before he started up with the drugs again, but we're so much closer now. I didn't think it was possible to know someone so well, twin or not. It feels good though, to know that when he says he's okay that he means it and that he knows I mean it when I say I love him more than anything.
Like I said, everything's good. Joel's good. I'm good if Joel's good.
So we're good. And if you want proof, ( hereCollapse ) it is.